R is for Remembering

All journeys have their storms. Lately I have been forced to remember the longest, most severe strom of my life. The memories come daily, but lately they have been more frequent and more vivid. October first brought back an anxious, nervous feeling hemmed with tears. By the end of the day, I had realized that October first was the first day of basketball practice. (The first day to "bounce a ball!" ) Then came the Lawton Mac football game, OSU vs. Texas, and the day Dad met Jesus. Football homecoming and entering a crowded gym came soon after.
They were all clouded with sadness, yet I always found funny memories, embarassing stories and new tales told by friends to soften the time. My baby girl will be 1 on Tuesday. She is a constant reminder of God's promise of something better to come. In my mom's words..a rainbow!
This is a poem I wrote in May.

I miss your smile,
Your hello,
All the places we would go…
The gym,
The lake
The High School games,
Nothing will ever be the same.

I miss your voice
Your dialect,
The way you’d flaunt your intellect!
Stories
Poems
Funny sayings
I even miss Dylan playing!

I miss your heart,
You really cared….
The way that you were always there.
Advice
I’m proud
A hug goodnight
To live forever would be alright.

I miss your laugh
And heavy sigh.
I refuse to say good bye!
Miss you
Love you
Is what I’ll say
We’ll be together in heaven someday!